I had a bad day, attended 3 continue meetings from 4pm to 1am. My proposals die, totally. until now, I’m really tired, too exhausted to think like that over again n again.
Do I deserve it? i'm asking the same question all the time, am i too obsessed with the things i wanna do, I tried so hard, so frustrated. I’m upset, but no tears. I dun know why. Maybe I’m tougher, that find makes me feel worse.
I dun wanna be a tough bitch even someday. Even the worst thing happened, I need my feeling, my creative. I dun wanna follow the teacher to copy others ideas, am I wrong? But why it’s just so…hard! So frustrated.
Again and again and again……………
I’m a big girl, I know what will happened when I’m desperate for something, I’m tried my best to not to be that way. But not this time.
But at least, now I could sleep, and those moments will be just like tears in rain.
Good night baby.